Thank you to those who commented on my last post. I really appreciate the support. I laughed when one commenter wondered how many words I had typed in the past 3 years on this blog... good question! I wouldn't wanna count. Throughout this journey, the so-called reason for this blog has evolved. Before Bella was born, I knew of blogging, but had no interest in doing it myself. Main reason was that I considered myself too busy living my life to take the time to write about it. Besides, who would even care? Lord knows how many blogs are out there, why would anyone or how would anyone find me and wanna read my ramblings?
Then Bella arrived.
It was after three days of insanity in the hospital trying to get cell reception, watching my battery get sapped from trying to get a signal all the time, trying to return calls that went straight to voicemail, etc... that our social worker told us about carepages.org, which is a lot like caringbridge.org. We set our little page up the next day to let friends and family know what was happening in the hospital, since voice to voice and email to email communication was just too complicated and time consuming.
Then, people started writing back, and a conversation started. It became this cycle of love, support, information, and inspiration. I wrote, people read, people wrote back, Ang and I read. Every night, the last thing we did in those early days was read the comments. It gave us the spiritual energy to allow our minds to switch off and let our bodies rest up for the next big day. Then, we tackled that day with love, partnership, faith, and trust, and came home and told you about it. Then, you wrote back, and we read. Filled back up, we slept, and awoke readier than we would have been without you, and did it all over again.
It has always been a conversation. Sometimes, when there are only a few comments, I have to admit, I get a little sad. It's as if I'm talking to someone and they just aren't replying. Combine that with the fact that there are more than a couple of people reading, and I began to think, "Hey, wait a minute. I'm reaching out, but who's reaching back?" For those that have been reading since Bella died, you'll remember I was really pushing and exploring the social boundaries of the blogosphere when we were on the road traveling the country looking to meet Bella's followers. I think the blogosphere is a fascinating social evolution. I think we are still in its infancy, and establishing what are the norms for the 'rules of engagement.' I know I've said all along, "Hey, I'm new at this. I don't know if there is "a right way" that we are all supposed to act on here, but this is how I'm gonna do it, and I hope you stick around."
Thank you to all of you who have stuck around, and thank you particularly to those who have talked back. I've always said, "It's not what you say, it's THAT you say anything in the first place." I used to say it a little blunter... Don't be a lurker! LOL
Well, family Ringgold has survived week one of three on the road... Ang was in New Jersey this past week and leaves for Florida tomorrow morning. She comes home on Thursday, and then we have a week together, then I leave for Utah for 5 days. Our work schedules have been so intense, we haven't been able to talk much about or work on a MASSIVE new campaign in the EB world...
I apologize; I have been asked to not talk about the news just yet. I jumped the gun last night and shouldn't have. I posted details that I have been asked to remove at this time and I happy to do so. I apologize to all parties! Sometimes I get myself in trouble with this thing (my mouth...).
Much love to you.