Happy Easter! Today is more than a happy Easter, it is also a sad Easter. For those of you who didn't know her, baby Quinn Seymour went to heaven yesterday. She was the third JEB baby to undergo BMT at the University of Minnesota, and despite overcoming so many obstacles along the way, she succumbed to a lethal form of pneumonia on Day +120 of transplant. She was 2 days shy of 8 months old.
Her daddy, Marc writes an amazing caringbridge page. Go there and send them some love, or on their facebook profile.
There is so much to say about today, Easter, and how it relates to Quinn, Marc, Bella, and me. Let me do my best...
Today, at church, we heard, "He is risen!"...
... but what made today SO REAL for me - and I know for Marc - is that thanks to Jesus' sacrifice, and God's promise, "SHE is risen!" (when she = Bella or Quinn)
THIS is what our Easter Celebration is all about. Up till today, for me, Easter was always like, "Yay, Jesus! Good for you! You went to heaven today!"
It never dawned on me that TODAY is the day that I stake my faith on.
TODAY is the day that gave me the strength to get up the day after Bella died.
TODAY IS THE DAY where the rubber meets the road.
TODAY is the day after for Marc, and it is Easter itself.
How amazing is that?
Marc lives his faith out on his sleeve like I do, and I know that for him, Quinn is risen, pain free, enjoying the endless beauty and bounty of God's love in heaven. I imagine Bella and Tripp there waiting for her, saying, "Welcome back Quinny! Great job down there!"
This does not remove the pain, but it transforms the experience, and for me, allows me to transcend any suffering. I've said it before and I'll say it again, I am in pain, but I am not suffering. Instead, I choose to believe that this is all part of God's beautifully divine plan, and that when I am reunited with Him in my heavenly form, He might just let me take a peek of the view from up there...
He is risen. She is risen. Alleluia, Quinny!