Thursday, July 16, 2009

Grandma's Ray of Sunshine

Has it been a week since the last post already? Was I really that traumatized by last Thursday? Were you?

Actually, things have been smooth since then for the most part, but we are as busy as ever. I am working a little part time right now, and while it's only 11 hours over 3 days, I feel like I'm working way more. Maybe because we are still sleeping way less?

My mom is in town for ten days helping out, which has been just great. She is the brightest ray of sunshine in any room. No matter what kind of day she is having, when you interact with her, you get nothing but genuine happiness to be with you. She is so present, and has such a JOY and zest for everything life has to offer. She is and has always been an amazing role model. She is teaching Ali to swim and helping straighten and organize the mess that is our house. Man, I love my mom.

Bella's acne is gone! No scabs on her face, save a few on her left ear. The baby acne actually did a number on her ear for some reason, but it is all healing, as it always does. She just has the most beautiful face. I am mesmerized by her beauty (when she's not screaming at me).

Her foot is healing well after "the bath episode." We are using a new product called Elasto-gel on it and we like the results. You wouldn't believe the extent of the damage, though. Frankly, it is a bit intimidating how much damage she did with one heel strike. She kicked the inside of her instep, and the wound extended all the way around to the bottom of the inside of the arch in one direction, and out to the 5th toe in the other direction. All the skin just sluffed off. She hasn't slept much in the past two days and we wonder if it is because of the discomfort from the wound going through its motions.

She still eats like a champ and is up to 3 oz per feed. Mommy has been struggling to keep up her milk supply, so would you please take 30 seconds and visualize an abundance of milk filling the fridge? I remind Ang that she has provided all the milk Bella has ever needed, but we have to dip into the reserves in the freezer almost daily right now, and I can see it must be stressful being responsible for feeding your daughter, but not feeling in control of how much milk you produce. As the guy, all I can do and stand beside and support her and encourage her to take her fenugreek (and eat her oatmeal in the am). Visualize milk, please! Thanks!

I recently purchased "The Secret" on audio CD. I owned the movie a few years ago and loaned it out permanently, then got the book as a graduation present, but who has time to read? So, while I'm driving, I get a good dose of inspiration and coaching. Like anything, there are parts that are just awesome, and parts that I find a little cheesy/fluffy (like the reason all overweight people are fat is because they think fat thoughts). There are two main points that have really helped this week: Thoughts are creative, so manage your thoughts. and Visualize what you want.

Here's my little "Secret Story for the week:"

I needed to pick up my mom at the airport on Tuesday night, but was running late. I live about 5 miles away from the freeway, and the street that gets me there is a busy, main drag full of lights. It can take 6 minutes or 12 minutes to get to the freeway depending on how you hit the traffic lights. I told my mom I would meet her at the baggage claim and really intended on keeping my word, so I visualized green lights all the way to the freeway...and got them! Then, I visualized me being there at the bottom of the escalator and saw my mom coming down the escalator in my mind's eye. Finally, I visualized the exact parking space at the airport that would be closest...I've been there enough times to know exactly where that is. I saw it waiting for me, so I could deliver on my intention. Well, at the last second, I made a wrong turn pulling into the airport and went up to the roof of the parking structure by accident. I found a good spot (not THE spot) and went down the stairs and walked into the terminal. I walked right up to where everyone waits, and didn't even have to count to TEN before I saw my mom coming down the escalator EXACTLY as I saw it my mind while in the car. The best part? As we were walking out to the elevator, I looked at the very parking spot I visualized...and it was vacant! I just laughed, and told my mom the story. I have caused parking spots to be available at airports before, but not in a while. It's been nice to get my mind focused again on CREATING life, not REACTING to it.

Last but not least, I want to take this opportunity to acknowledge I had a loss of faith for a little while. You may have noticed I stopped generating the vision I created for Bella's future. Truth be told, I gave up. However, after listening to The Secret and being reminded that every single thing in existence made by humans was first a thought, then a word, I realized that I have a choice. I can choose to continue to generate a miracle in the face of reason, or I can be reasonable and give in and take what I get.

I choose to generate a miracle by declaring that one day, Bella will look back and say, " Yeah, I was born with this rare skin condition, but when they brought me home from the hospital, it went away."

Please REJOICE in GRATITUDE with me that this miracle HAS ALREADY HAPPENED, and we are just simply waiting for time to catch up!

THANK YOU for participating in the miraculous healing of Bella! We are honored to be your partners in her transformation.

May God bless you with abundance in all things this very day. Good night!


  1. Hi there, I've been reading your blog for a few weeks and I think this is my first time commenting!

    Just wanted to recommend Colloidal Silver if you can find it, has amazing healing properties and could help a lot.

    That visualization stuff can be freaky! But gosh it can be so hard to make it happen!! I don't think it works for other people though...because you can't make a decision like that for Anabella. Maybe she has a really important life goal to achieve that will be done through her EB!! I really believe some souls choose to have special needs because of what they can learn or give through it. I'll never forget the words of Kate, a 14 year old EB sufferer (she had the worst of the worst) who said she loved her life the way it was. She inspired me so much, if she can love her extremely painful life, anyone can. Including little Bella!!

  2. Comments from Care Pages Site Part 1:

    Posted Jul 21, 2009 9:02am
    by Joan-Marie Bresnahan

    So happy to hear Sheila is there with you to help out and give support to your family.
    She is a real blessing! This is just what you need-a little helpful support to give you and Angelique a chance to recharge your batteries.Love and many prayers of support, Joan-Marie Bresnahan
    Posted Jul 18, 2009 3:03pm
    by Danae Thomason

    You are so inspirational! I will continue to rejoice in gratitude with you in that miracle!
    Posted Jul 18, 2009 1:36am
    by Denise Dew

    Ang, PRAYERS are Powerful ammunitions in God's artillery against harm to your family on this battlefield EARTH. My young sister, you are on the SAME battlefield many of us mothers have been on in many different wars all our own. Let your TEMPLE be FILLED with GOD'S HOLY BLESSING for you to provide for those entrusted to your care. As you BELIEVE so shall it be done. I, for one BELIEVE you can do it. I continue my prayers as I have just the same. May your surplus INCREASE not DECREASE.
    Posted Jul 17, 2009 9:56pm
    by lauren hicks

    You continue to inspire me...I am holding your vision :)
    Posted Jul 17, 2009 6:10pm
    by Caroline King

    Hi Tim, I don't know if you remember me or not, but Steve Williams introduced us at Starbucks on 7th St & McDowell in Phoenix one time when you were visiting here. Steve told me about Bella; then forwarded your website. I have been following her progress, and am totally inspired by your positive energy, your stand and vision for her healing, and of course your "more than life itself" fatherly love for her is more than obvious. I, too, am a huge fan of "The Secret", and creating our life rather than reacting to it. I recently read an article about nursing mothers volunteering to donate breast milk to babies who need it...have you considered that as a possibility? Just a thought, but I felt moved to mention it to you...My thoughts, prayers and love are with you and your precious family.
    God Bless each and every one of you.
    Love, Caroline King

  3. Comment from Care Pages Site Part 2:

    Posted Jul 17, 2009 1:13pm
    by Cisa Payuyo

    Tim, It was so good to see you yesterday! Visualizing MILK and ABUNDANCE,
    Posted Jul 17, 2009 10:02am
    by Russ Baldwin

    Ya know, I hear lack of coffee can cause a lapse in faith. The community of God is a great thing. Even while you were having your doubts the rest of us were still carrying the vision for you. I think that's one of the reasons God wants us to be together in our journey of faith. We'll add milk to the vision also. Thanks for sharing.
    Love & Prayers
    Russ & Jen
    Posted Jul 17, 2009 9:16am
    by Robin Setto

    Dear Tim, Angelique, Ali and Bella,
    All of you are truly amazing! So strong and looking for ways to help yourselves (listening to The Secret, etc.), just amazing the energy and spirit all of you have! "Yeah, I was born with this rare skin condition, but when they brought me home from the hospital, it went away."
    Our intense prayers continue...adding milk to the list this time.
    -Michael and Robin Setto
    Posted Jul 17, 2009 9:13am
    by Marie Bresnahan

    I'm visialuzing milk, milk milk.

    And I am picking up your immense gratitude for your mom. From all the support she gave my family years ago, I can also say, she is an amazing woman!! Keep the faith, one day Bella will only talk about this illness as a thing of the past!!
    Posted Jul 17, 2009 8:22am
    by terri wiener

    You and your family are such inspirations.
    As for not hearing from you, I was thinking it was a less stressful week for all of you and so it seems to be! I'm visualizing MILK, MILK, MILK
    warmly, Terri
    Posted Jul 17, 2009 8:19am
    by Bernadette Slavin

    Yes Bella...our strong little girl. I'm so glad all the good parts "the Secret" are being employed. I totally agree our thoughts generate results. It also helps that you are so supportive of each other and your Mom sounds wonderful. You are always in my thoughts and prayers...with so much love, Bernadette
    Posted Jul 17, 2009 8:07am
    by Jan Pflaum

    Dear Family,
    We are so happy Bella is healing so well. Bill and I are very happy Sheila is with you for 10 days......... How amazing it is to have our Mothers around us, they are angels that we need and God knew this when he gave us Mothers....
    We loved the family photo.....Bella is soooooo darling... and Ali seems to be surviving quite nicely, she looks very content......... and cute as ever.............. We continue to pray every day for your family....... It is hard to put into words how our hearts go out to all of you. Be sure and send our love to Sheila. Love Uncle Bill and Jan
    Posted Jul 17, 2009 7:02am
    by Lynne Boschee

    Ooops. It's actually More Milk Plus. The stuff works.
    Posted Jul 17, 2009 7:01am
    by Lynne Boschee

    Visualizing milk. Try a supplement called Mother's Milk Plus. You can get it at any breast feeding store, or online. All herbal, and really does help with production.
    Posted Jul 17, 2009 2:31am
    by Kathryn Fulton

    Tim, thank you for sharing your life and family experiences. Life IS beautiful, and miracles are abundant. Much love to you, Ang, Ali, and Bella.
    Posted Jul 17, 2009 2:14am
    by Albert Alva

    You and your family are inspiring me to appreciate life even more.