Friday, July 31, 2009
Look! I'm 22.5 inches and 10 pounds 6 ounces! I'm a growin'!
Bella checkin' out the Carousel at Disneyland...oooooh, bright shiny lights spinning round and round!
So much to share...ok, here goes.
Thanks to the inspiration of the thousands of success stories on The Secret website, the book The Secret, and the coaching of a dear friend, I am going to share 1 MONSTER INTENTION and 2 breakthroughs I had today with all of you.
It dawned on me today that Bella has more power and strength than any of us can comprehend. Here's why:
Since even before her birth, her body has had open wounds. Remember, she was born without any skin on much of her left leg. She has never known any other experience than having open wounds. Today, she coos, giggles, smiles, and interacts as much as any baby at 2 months we've ever met. Yesterday I cut my finger at the fingernail playing my guitar and it HURT. Bella has many more times the wound I have on my finger, and she goes through her day like she doesn't have any.
How can that be? Because she has never known anything else. Like water to a fish, her wounds are invisible to her. Sure, when she cracked that hole in her leg, it was pretty visible, but as her many wounds are in a perpetual state of healing, she just sleeps, eats, HEALS, and goes through her day like any other kid her age. She doesn't know she has EB. she just is. We're the ones all messed up over her diagnosis.
It was inside of this revelation that her EB disappeared to me. I don't see it any more. I just see a cute, sometimes fussy, 2 month old who is so cute that when she is making eye contact with me and smiling, I am frozen in time in a state of bliss, wonder, amazement, and total love. Time stands still when she smiles at me, or even more so when I see her smiling at mommy or Ali. She LOVES her big sister. It is truly magical.
I didn't realize when I was creating the vision that once she came home from the hospital [the EB] would go away, it was for me, not her.
Perhaps you did, perhaps not. Either way, thank you for holding your vision along with me. Miracles occur.
After all, the lyrics in Bella's song state:
"But don't be afraid to ask for help
God will always answer you
in His or Her own way."
Thank you God for taking the EB away, and revealing the perfect angel within. That is who I see now. I am so blessed by You God, thank you for the miracle that she already is.
I realized today that there is no difference to God/The Universe between 1 dollar and 1 million dollars. We humans are the ones who value money and we humans declare that making a buck is easy, but making a million bucks is hard.
A million bucks is simply 1 million easy bucks made. If 1 dollar is easy money, 1 million dollars is A LOT of easy money.
There is no "hard" involved in the equation. Grass doesn't strain to grow. My daughters do not strain to grow. In fact, they grow in their SLEEP. "Hard" might just be an invention we humans created to justify when results don't meet expectations.
So. It is my job to declare and share my vision with clarity to The Universe, without "knowing how," because it has been demonstrated time and time again, that when you declare your intention, then events and people line up in alignment with that vision.
Last summer, I completed my internship in San Diego. I did not want to commute 90 miles each way each day for 6 months, so I created that someone in SD would allow me to live in their home FOR FREE while I completed my internship. I BELIEVED that God wanted me in SD to do the work I was doing with developing NICU MT, working in Hospice, etc. I genuinely believed that God has provided for me this whole journey to California and through music school, so why would God stop providing for us then? So, without knowing more than one family down in SD, I just began DECLARING that it be so. Well, long story short, one night, I got an email from a woman I had never spoken to explaining to me that she had a home for me to use. Not a room, a HOUSE. Turns out, they were relocating to Michigan and were putting their house in La Jolla on the market. I could live in it for the entire internship, unless it sold. Again, I had NEVER EVEN MET THE WOMAN!
I ended up with a 4 bedroom home in La Jolla, CA 10 minutes from my internship site for free for 6 months.
At the time I declared it, I had no evidence for why it would come to be except for my belief in 2 things:
1) There is more abundance available to us than we can comprehend, and
2) All we need to do is get clear about what it is we want, declare it into existence, and believe it can be so.
Ever heard the phrase, "Whatever you conceive and believe, you can achieve?" (or something close to that...)
Anyhow...I share all that because I need to be reminded that I have already created from nothing many many times. In fact, I declare that I am blessed to be a master of manifestation! I am a master creator!
I AM DECLARING TO THE UNIVERSE THAT I AM MANIFESTING $1.2 MILLION DOLLARS IN PERSONAL INCOME BY MY BIRTHDAY ON AUGUST 31, 2009.
$100,000.00 will go to DebRA and another $100,000.00 will go to the EBMRF. That leaves $1 million for my family and me as a gift from God/The Universe.
Who wants to play this game with me? If you want to hop in the sandbox and play, send a post simply stating," I AM IN." We'll iron at the details as they are revealed, and let me tell you, they are already at work in ways I'll be telling you about real soon I'm sure.
At first, I was PETRIFIED to share this with all of you, for fear that you might think I've gone off my rocker. However, after reading this over, I am actually filled with humility, confidence, and GENUINE BELIEF THAT IT NOT ONLY CAN BE, BUT ALREADY IS. Time just now needs to catch up with the vision I hold in my mind.
Will you hold it with me? Even if you don't want to jump in, I humbly request that you set aside any judgements or fears, and BELIEVE IT CAN BE, and HOLD that space open for us.
LET'S DO IT!!!!!!!!!
May my words convey the love and gratitude that I have for you that you take the time to read this and generate this possibility with me.
May God bless you all, and I look forward to hearing from you!
There is a ring finger under that blister somewhere. She never even made a peep about it. We took off her mitten and almost fainted!