Sorry I am late posting. It is Friday morning, and I am neck deep into our music therapy conference. Off to a GREAT start. Haven't seen most of my colleagues since Bella died, and the hugs and conversations have had that extra quality of love and support, both sharing in the grief, but also in the joy of it ALL.
So... sometime in early January, I was doing the dishes after dinner when Bella started talking to me. That was a little unusual since Bella wasn't old enough to talk in life, so it wasn't like I heard a familiar voice... I felt a familiar presence. It was that divine Bella, the one I've written about so many times before.
Here is what she said:
Hi daddy. I know you are worried about the new baby, but I feel I have some explaining to do. You see, there is a soul up here in heaven that wants to come down to Earth and do GREAT things, but she wants to come with EB, then be healed by it specifically first. I didn't want to see her wait such a long time up here, so I thought I would help out. So, I kind of 'jumped in line' when you and mommy wanted a new baby, because I knew that if I came through you, and we went through EXACTLY what we went through together, YOU would speed up that process for that cure, and my friend up here wouldn't have to wait so long to realize her vision. Sorry about that! What I really want you to know, though, is that this new baby is the second baby you were intended to have all along, and the baby will NOT have EB. I hope you don't mind..."
Angelique and I had such a strong feeling that our second child was going to be a boy, that when the ultrasound came back and it was a girl, we were completely shocked. It was as if something was out of place. So much so that Ang actually packed a pair of boy clothes for Bella's delivery date just in case.
Julian, your big sister cut in line. I hear big sisters have the right to do that from time to time.