February 21, 2011: Back to it...

Heaveno!

I really shouldn't wait till after 10pm to blog.  There is so much to share and all I want to do is go to bed.

Alright.  Let's see if i can write this.  I attended a 3 day-intensive called the Millionaire Mind Intensive.  If any of you are familiar with the Landmark Forum.  Just think Landmark Forum with 700 people, 10 times the energy, and awesome music throughout... specifically for money.

If anyone reading this feels like they have ANY loss of power and freedom with their finances and money, I can't recommend this course enough.  Money has been an area of my life where I have struggled and struggled for YEARS, and now I have realized why.

When I was around 21, my parents split up after 32 years.  I will never forget the day that I watched my sad drive away from my childhood home in a rental car foreclosed, bankrupt, and divorced at 65.  He was riving his rental car with all his worldly possessions from Connecticut out to Arizona to live on my brother's couch in his student housing.  Then, I turned around as my sister's boyfriend at the time closed the latch on the u-Haul.  The family belongings were going to a friend's garage to be stored before the bank was due to arrive that afternoon to change the locks on our home.

When I looked back, my dad was gone.  In that moment, I said to myself, "Money is dangerous.  It is NOT safe.  You could lose EVERYTHING because of money."  After all, it looked as if my dad did.
So, I became a money avoider.  I figured that the less I had, the less I could screw up, and the less danger I'd be in.  It's amazing how the brain creates such powerful neuro-associations.

Well, last night, I broke through my fear of money once and for all.  When I did, I experienced feeling Bella and my daddy looking down at me from heaven, absolutely BEAMING.  They have wanted nothing else than for me to finally break through this last frontier of 'stuckness.'  It doesn't serve me or anyone else in the world for me  to continue to avoid money.  The very primitive part of my brain actually equated money with danger.  Crazy, huh?

I shared this breakthrough on the mic and I told audience what I was doing regarding funding the cure to EB at the U of M.  With that, the entire ballroom rose to its feet in a standing ovation.  I'll tell you what happened next tomorrow....

God night.