Wow! I have tears in my eyes. Thank you all for coming out and showing your support. Thank (almost) all of you for choosing to to share your joy in response to this news. Yes, of course we are a bit nervous as to how this will turn out, but you all showed true class in what you chose to write. You truly uplifted my own spirits about this child. We have been very nervous sharing this news with family and close friends because, well, it's a little scary for everyone. Some have taken it well, some have taken it a little less than well.
Oh, and to "anonymous" who wrote about preparing Ali...: Go away. Go find some class and some tact. Then, come back and apologize. This was not your first obtuse comment. Your crass style is quite obvious. We don't need it. Get a clue from the 76 other comments as to appropriate social behavior. Google it if you have to. (Thank you Sara for your comment to said offender. YOU ROCK) It's called a FILTER. Just because you THINK it, doesn't mean you WRITE it. Somebody needed to fill you in on this, and I'm glad it was me. Because when I deal with someone, I don't leave anyone within earshot wondering what I'm trying to say. Ask the treatment team in MN. My friends once made a custom shirt for me that says LOUDASS across the front, because I AM the guy who WILL say the thing everyone else is thinking but doesn't want to. Yeah, yeah, rise above... nope. Not this time. DONE.
Ah, I feel much better. ;-)
Back to the story...
Angelique said it all within a minute or two after the EPT read YES+. She laid back on our bed, looked at the ceiling and said, "God has a plan."
He always has.
This is where the faith muscle gets its workout again. The real rub to all this is that God has a plan, and in every event that is laid before us, we have the opportunity to look for Him and His Grand, Elegant Plan in that event. If everything is made up of God, then every event is also. We are just his children. How could we understand everything like He does? Ali doesn't understand everything mommy and daddy do... but she trusts us. As do we Him.
EB or no EB, not up to us. A soul willing to give others the opportunity for generosity, love, nurture, compassion, selflessness... THAT is a generous soul! A soul willing to experience EB is a wise old soul. AND... it's one thing to have a child with EB without knowing, and it's another thing to roll the dice again, and commit to that child no matter what the outcome. In a world where the Trisha Knuths and the Vanessa Delgados and the Missy Grays of the world seek out and adopt (forgive me for others I didn't name) children with EB, who are we to fear it? These women and their spouses fill me with so much inspiration that, while in the deepest place in my heart I want an EB free child, I know of few parents as skilled and powerful as Ang and I to give the best care possible to a child with EB.
What you all reminded me of is how blessed we are, but also how blessed this child is to come through us. That was so incredibly kind and generous of you to say. Thank you. You gave me back my confidence. Today, you breathed new life into me. Yesterday, I was weak in the face of this news. Today, I AM STRONG. Thanks to YOU!
One other piece of news. I am no longer going to blog daily. It's taking away from me working on editing the MN journey into a second book, and from writing privately the material for my upcoming record. So, I am going to pull back on the reigns in March to twice a week, then in April, it will be weekly. My promise is that it will stay consistent. It also means you can still come and comment and check in on each other on a daily basis through the comment thread. This is a community, and we are used to being here together. I am going to blog on this site on Monday nights and Thursday nights starting next week. (You can still get shorter chunks from me on my success blog; I'll be writing there every Sunday / Wednesday night at least...) So, I'm still around... it's just that I need to write a little more just to myself for a while. However, I predict when this little munchkin hits the ground running in late August, I won't be able to resist posting daily for a while!
You guys ROCK.
Did I cook it with my famous "Bella Mind Melt?"