Tuesday, January 18, 2011

January 18, 2011: Grinding away


I have a question for all of YOU...

Did anyone even see an ad on the blog in the past 48 hours?

I have been blacklisted by google adsense.  Not good, since Google controls most of the universe these days.  They told me I had illegal click activity on my blog.  I don't even remember seeing any ads yet.  I wonder if my comments about NOT clicking got me in trouble somehow?  Weird.  I am going to appeal it, but their Q&A on the matter leads me to believe I am SOL on this for this account at least.  That's a drag.

That, my friends, is why you should always have multiple streams of income for whatever it is you are up to.  You never know when and where one stream is suddenly going to dry up!  I think the investing word is 'diversification!'  However, until about a year ago, I thought that only pertained to where you invest the money you already made.  Now, I am learning that the 80% of wealthy people out there have multiple streams of income as well as multiple streams of investment... the game being that when you avoid high risk investments, they become a source of income themselves over time!

Alright, enough about that.

Q&A:  Yes, standard vaccination schedules are followed with the kids in the BMT trial.

Today has continued to be a rough grief day.  I shake it for a little while, then it creeps back.  Combined with the grief is the overwhelmed feeling I know too well when I over-commit or over-extend.  I am reading a great book by the organizational guru David Allen called, "Getting Things Done."  In it, he paints a very sympathetic heart for the overstimulated and attention depleted world we now live in.  He explains that for 99.99% of our human history, work was self evident.  Crops needed tending, buildings needed building, etc.  Only in the past 30 years or so have we moved into a primarily knowledge economy.  Work is never finished, and there is no clear indicator for what is the 'right' work we should be doing.  The tyranny of email alone has cast most of us into an un-winnable game of survival with our inboxes.  Right now, I have 4291 emails in my inbox in my Gmail account.  That's not including my junk mail or spam folder, and that is only 1 of now 4 different email accounts I manage.  I am under no illusions that I will NEVER, EVER, EVER clean out that inbox.  However, it represents my brain in a way.  We all get dumped on every single day by endless emails (the average office worker gets just under 200 a day) and we are forced to make hundreds of micro decisions a day... do I open it?  Do I read it?  Do I reply?  Do I reply all?  Do I delete it or just leave it?  My brain is fried trying to manage this tidal wave in the space of pain and grief, and I know you don't need to be going through pain and grief to feel bludgeoned by email!

Hahaha, my brain hurts just LOOKING at that run-on paragraph!  Poignant...

What else...

I need to go to bed.

A tired, fried, and frazzled hug to you all,

God night.


  1. Stop. Slow down and rest in His Love.
    beautiful, beautiful Bella

  2. Prayers for peace...


    A hug to you all, Donna in NJ

  3. Yep...slow down! Breathe.
    (That email number sent ME into a panic!)
    I didn't see any ads...weird.

  4. Love the picture of Bella, makes me want to cup her sweet cheeks in my hands.

  5. Life should be simple and it is sad that it isn't! I wish for you God's Peace as you deal with the chaos of life and the pain of grieving. And that picture is ADORABLE!
    Have a happy Wednesday!

  6. Illegal click activity, huh? What in the world does that even mean? Anyway, I never saw an ad.

    Looks like you need some you-time to breathe and relax. I don't know if you ever do yoga but that is one thing that always helps me recenter myself. It's nice too because unlike some forms of exercise you can do it almost anywhere and with minimal equipment.

    Take care!


  7. Sorry to hear about the ads. Here's a quick question for you if you don't mind me asking. Did you know before Bella was born that she would have EB?

    Praying for your family.

  8. Always read your blog and remembering your family. Thanks for continuing to share.

  9. Hi Tim
    I haven't seen any ads either ...
    You must be also exhausted after your activities last week. May be you need a romantic and relax weekend wih Ang... to recharge your energy.
    How is your transformation program going?
    Always praying for you and your family.

  10. Anonymous...
    Nope. Because it's a skin disease, they couldn't detect anything via ultrasound...they didn't know till she was delivered.
    (sorry. Being nosey and answering for Tim!)

  11. Love me some looking-upside-down-in-the-bed Bella!

    "The tyranny of email"...what a great description. How odd that we are more advanced than any other period in history, but yet we have less time for ourselves and our families. Something is definitely wrong with that picture. Hoping you will take time to rest and re-charge.

    Blessings to you, sweet family.

    A friend in NC

  12. so funny...I've thought the same thing before...do I reply, or reply all or not reply...hmmmm...so many decisions...so little time! I think that's why I check my mail 1-2 times a week....the email overload kills me...and then you have to go thru the snail mail..ugh!!! did that even make sense?? lol
    Hope you caught up on some much needed rest!


  13. Hey Tim and Ang,

    I am so sorry that I didn't get to reading this post yesterday. But, it was my birthday. I turned the BIG 3-0! I can't believe I am 30 already. That's just Crazy Sauce! I don't feel 30 so I guess that is good.

    I am sorry that Tuesday was a bad day for grief. You both are so strong and doing so well you are bound to have your bad days. Still, I am sorry that you have to go thru that. Lots of prayers for you.

    Lots of Love,
    Amber, Craig, Malorie, and Liam
    The McLaughlin Family,CA